Feast. Fat. Fatal.

For a start, I would like to congratulate our beloved country, Malaysia for being a very peaceful, food galore nation; despite with all the saying, negative yet constructive remarks by politicians, neighboring country... (-_-)

Apek ni dulu penah kerja kat pit nih... otai bab2 tire and alignment. ^_^

Computer-aided alignment. Kalo rosak komputer ni pun xdak hal... the apek just switch it to a manual, measuring tape to align the tyre... O_O no biggie.

We, the Malaysian citizen are a grateful lot; bless with so many good things that somehow we undeniably do take things for granted (no, not because of politics) but with all the friendly people, good food (but still no Michelin Star restaurant... O_O) and priceless peace and tranquility of all the different races and religion this country shared.

Champagne grapes... @ Isetan

Craving for a Wagyu beef O_O (learning to indulge myself in the art of fine dining heh)

Moreh @ Masjid Asy-Syakirin, KLCC

Breakin fast with Azharan @ San Francisco Steakhouse KLCC... Salmon tuuu... O___O

Dessert... slurp. Kan? hehe

Yet, somehow to take this grateful thingy to a whole different level, I think I have to travel outside, see the world with my own eyes; so that I can be promiscuous of the things people consider "good" or "bad", "developed" "undeveloped" and above all know the differences in mentality and culture all around the world.

Then breaking fast plak with the IDEans and ex-housematey... hoho ^_^

Muka masing2 xpuas hati mkanan lmbt smpi wahahahha!!

The world is a big place, so I'm not going to solitude myself seeing it all through the tube, believing what the media is showering us day to day basis... (thats why I didn't watch the news... -_-)

I want to befriend a Jews. I want to learn tango directly from a Spaniard. I want to see Angel Falls with my own eyes. I want to dive alongside Great White Shark and see them gulping down a seal (O_O). I want to see a spaceship blasting off from Space Center Houston and maybe to top off this list, I want to see the top of the world from the peak of Mount Everest... O___O (plus maybe, I want to be a space tourist and see the moon with my own eyes... hehe ^_^)

Short term half-assed dream: wanto have a NERF war with the mateys YEAH!!! xD

Heck. I can dream, telling people what I want. I know I can achieve all of this if I struggle hard enough, and by God favors, if somehow an opportunity(s) been laid down to me, why not grab it all while we still live?

Enough with the self-rambling.

Happy 53rd Birthday Malaysia!! xD 

Happiness.

Come across this erudite argument, a talk about what is it that define "happiness" actually.



Hope that this will solve some problems lately about this "Pursuit of Happiness" thingy...

And I do hope that you're happy with your choices of being "happy". Be proud in what your choices are, and never look back.

It's a mistake, a very big mistake. I don't want to make things worse. Please fix things up, no matter how hard it is.

God grant me the serenity to accept the people I cannot change, the courage to change the one I can, and the wisdom to know it's me. -Author Unknown

Finish what you started earlier. I can guide you, but still; the choices and the end result is yours.

I'm tired of being taken for granted; AGAIN and again. Knowing that I'm a fool, you don't even respect me of being too nice and kind. I'm not being selfish, but knowing that I'm not needed, and somehow deep down I know I will get abandon later on, so what is it that I'm fighting for actually?

...Enough is enough.

Miracle.

Yes, reality strikes hard; it will come and slap your face when you at the least expecting it.

Literally I'm not the one who got the "misfortune"; but seeing peoples who are dear to me having a really bad time, unforeseen "consequences" and its funny that all of us agree that LIFE is a miracle, we're sure bitching about it a lot.

For some time now, I deeply believe that things, "shit", whatever consequences that happens happen for a reason. Yeah, sometimes we take God for granted, knowing that God is All-Forgiving, whatever we do, good or bad, God will forgive us.

But sometimes, maybe, when God say, "Enough.", we're left clueless as to when He decide to bestow us some test, just to remind us of him that "I'm still the boss."

...then we'll know how high is it the sky will be. (Baru tahu langit tinggi ke rendah. Btul ke translation tuh? O_o)

But still, the door of forgiveness, repent, fix things over, will not be close until we are dead. So, knowing that death is compulsory, and knowing life is short, and above all God still gives us the opportunities in leaving behind some legacy that will do good for the world (Heaven knows what's the good about it, we don't. Or maybe some who got the power of painting the future O_o)

I just had a premonition that people of the future will wear bikinis all day long and burns things just for the fun of it. And all of them speak Indonesian. O_o

We do realize that our life is not a mere speck of dust on the face of the earth, and knowing that we are capable in doing something powerful influencing people around us in doing something good (or bad?) is miracle enough for me.

All that's left is choices of what will we do with that power. We're the one who shapes our life; not rules, law, books, film or whatever craps mass media trying to shape us over.

Well, the thing is self-leadership or self-empowerment is a lifelong journey.

We'll never be right. We'll also never be wrong.

Just that the consequences of our choices and people perception of what is morally wrong and right sometimes differ from time to time, inevitable clashes of human values will test our tolerance and forgiveness.

To me that's human. There will no "mistakes", just bad choices.

Ok enough with the enlightenment talk already. Hahahahahahhaa!!

Let us indulge our-self with some pic of my Ramadhan... :))))

Stucked at S13 Shah Alam bazaar... due to unexpected rain... O_o

 Breakin fast with Apai and Afiq @ Afiq's House. *drooling* T_T

 No matter how much I smoke, the habit just can't stick on me... so don't worry wahahaha!!

 

 A myriad of choices @ Jalan Sg. Tekala, Kampung Baru, KL.

But occasionally we just cook our own food just for the sake of satisfactions... Apai the Chef, Basyir the Venture Capitalist and me as Dishwasher. LOL.

Fauzan's sugarglider for curry tonight. Want some? Heh :))))

 My dream car... Nissan Cube... T_T

Come across this when iftaring with Azharan at Pelita Ampang... O_o

Making a report for losing my wallet... T_T 

(I am that clumsy. I know. It will become worse when I get so indulged in thought that things around me just don't matter anymore... and then I totally forgot about it...)

 

 Lotuses @ basement parking in Proton Hicom HQ Shah Alam. Neat kan? (Teman Zaslan amik keta dia servis.)

Thx Guys!! You guys rock!!! xD

(The best classmates of all time. Period. Yes. I'm being honest here. =)

Yes. I did save the best for the last...

 WELCOME HOME WEEBIT!! Damn I miss you so much you know... T_T

Yeah!!!!

p/s:

LOST.

I don't know why, for some reason, this last term of mine really stresses me out of my mind.

Uncertainties. Worries. Disoriented. Sleepless night. And above all, depression.

Yes, people do comforting me by saying, "Hg jgn pikiaq sgt. Byk sgt pikiaq xguna gak."
"There is always rainbow after the storm. Time2 nk hbh ni la byk dugaan hg akan dtg. So endure it."
"You're already at the end of your journey. Finish it."
"A brighter future is upon you when you finish your degree. Trust me."

...

But sometimes, I did realize and think about it again and again and again...

Is this what I want? Did I do the right thing? What if I chose the wrong path? Do I want to be what people want me to be; a graduate, with a certificate, boasting around showing people my certificate that I want to "work" with them to earn my living? Gaining reputation? Accumulating wealth; so that I can buy sports car, live in big houses and more importantly, gain respect from people around me - basically all the notion that will make life happier...

And somehow, deep within my heart, I know this notion(s) is kinda misplaced. I know that all this so-called "rat-race" sooner of later will collapsed and something, somehow I'm struggling to get out of that race.

There must be something in life that are more worthwhile than doing all that.

The thought of "What is it that I'm fighting for exactly?" sometimes really do take a toll out of me, and it affecting all things that I've been doing in day to day basis; eating, walking, crapping (O_O) and sometimes this kinda thought did linger in my dreams when I'm asleep, inner-conscious state of a limbo that I indirectly can't control...

Ok. Let's imagine what in store for me.

Graphic Designer? Typographer? (Yes. I do have all of this documentary and have seen it a couple of times already...)



How about venturing into advertising agency? Copywriter? Art Director?



...photographer?



Industrial designer?



...

Well, the limitation doesn't end there.

How about film director? Making documentary maybe? (but I have to accept that documentary will never be neutral...)



Activist? O_o



Comic artist? Manga maybe? (...its been a long time since I've drawn anything btw... T_T)



How about race driver? (I reckon that my driving talent skills and adrenaline pumping can make up to the task wahahaha!! ...but my weight hinders me... T_T)



How about game designer? Concept Artist?



...how about venturing into business then? Entrepreneur?



OR a dirty young radical politician that just whining and complaining in about everything that government do is all wrong... (to much inception conspiracy theory by The X Files and Prison Break perhaps LOL :)))



...

Some of my friends did say que sera sera, what ever will be will be; but sometimes going with the flow is kinda time wasting for me. Life's short; and the bad thing is we don't know when we will die. So I really do hope that before I die I want to something that is worth doing; legacy maybe, but more importantly fighting for something that can make the world a more better place.

Inspired by this speech, I really do hope, seeing that life is a never-ending miracle really motivate me in "connecting the dots" and above all, succeeding spiritually and earthly benefit will make my life all the more worthwhile...



p.s: Well nothing is perfect, but struggling for perfection is what I'm doing now. After all, life is a series of crossing path with one another; sometimes it ends well, some do not.

Be it right or wrong, we're the one who chose what we're gonna do about it. That's the only super-power I think God granted us since before we were born... (do take a look at Adam and Eve story, their choices are not influenced by God's will, not because of Devil's deception either, but rather because of their own choice... Curiosity kills the cat eh?)

So do something about it. =)

Soundtrack for the post :)))

Geek.

Funny sometimes seeing what we can do with Facebook... :))))))))))

Twilight?

Lord of The Rings?

How about Star Wars?

p.s: LOL :))))))))