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...Right now, I'm being clueless whether what I've been doing lately is right or wrong. Did I take the best decision or by being selfish and out of misery, I've made stupid conclusion? Have I endure enough or I'm just being spoilt by thinking that I deserve more and act all high and mighty saying that what I've been doing before have been taking granted for others? My sincerity and hyper state of mind has been cooled off by a feeling that many said, "A Recipe of Disaster".

What Is Responsibilities?

Now I know the feeling of my parent, teachers, mentors, and our respective leaders. There will never be enough to satisfy others, least of all ourselves. We can never make everyone liking us, for everyone has their own preference and their own opinion, and I respect that. Sound like the First Amendment from America's Bill of Rights, infringing freedom of Speech and fortunately (or unfortunately for one with over-extremism religiously pious sort-of thinking) we've been living peacefully albeit not the same like others but in a continuum pace we're surely excel in our own right (or trademark, brand, whatsoever you may call it). Responsibilities is hard where time and commitment collide and we're clueless which one we are more drawn towards to.

Thy will be honored when the fruit of achievement is nigh. Then come arrogance. Lost then the sincerity and self-appraisal. Thy will despair when all of a sudden our investment of time, hopes and dreams suddenly been gripped away and all our hard-work seems wasted away, as in breakups and death, the result are equally devastated.

Damn.

I am trapped at the very start. But it's a good thing.

Why? Because without this demeanor and infatuation phase we will never know what is our standard and by testing ourselves in the wide ugly ocean, we know our limitation and how stupid and ignorant ourselves are. Sad but true right? Shit. T_T

I strived to be good, if not perfect. Satisfying for both parties and by following meme (or duplication, the proved and success one) we were told that the good are bound for those who pray and hard-work. It does. Time will tell thats for sure.

Dare to Fail. Loved and Lost. Nothing Else Matters.

Thats how the world works, and the clock keeps ticking whether we become an ordinary, extra-ordinary or just plain average, we never know. We're the one shaped our own universe and by hook or by crook, we will die soon after. Thats compulsory for all living things and exquisitely beautiful as the colors of it make us appreciate our lives more.

Life is Short. For an average 30-40 years, after much working, striving and struggling in leaving a legacy there will bound some good and bad things to be shared at.

Up to us whether we want to share the load or just be plain selfish by being a complete hermit, shunned the world and blaming and scratching and biting...

Now I'm being too philosophical... Arghhh!!

Enough said. I'm to young for this. Hahahahaha =3

Radiohead - No Surprises