Euthanasia.

This song makes me cry.

Serious. Don't know why.

Its already the end of the year and yeah, I sucked big time; literally.

No point whining, nagging as no one will not even care about it anyway.

Yes. I've never feel so alone in my entire life.

No one to turn to. Nobody to love at. Nothing to fight on.

No one listening. 

Lost. Empty. Fragile.

Felt like being an angst teenager all over again.

People expect us to be expressionless, being "cool", "Hey, take it as a Man."

But deep down inside I'm tired of being taken for granted.

I lied. There, I said it. 

(As if someone gives a damn about it anyway.)

p.s: This post has nothing to do with my current job. Its been great, busy and satisfying. It is such a rare gift, getting jobs that correlate with my inner passion.

Maybe because it is going so well that I've feel like I need something of a breaker. Not related to jobs, maybe something like hobby, a renewed relationship, involve in a charity (religious activity maybe?), or anything that satisfies me.

The path is long and arduous; and I have to put my past behind me.

Gonna have to empty my cup once again. Start anew. Live simple and maybe, just maybe, I'll become the old, charismatic, hyped-up me once again.

Amen.



(Sebenarnya tgh boring nk mampus. Xdak sapa nk gaduh, ngadu n dgr. Boring gila hidup... -_-)