"The way to start writing isn't by writing at all. But by living. It isn't about creating something from thin air, but about documenting our personal feelings about the things that we see. Or to put it crudely, how are you going to be a storyteller if you have no story to tell? Perhaps, in the end, there are no such things as creative people; they are only sharp observers with sensitive hearts." - Yasmin Ahmad

"Here’s to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes.

The ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can praise them, disagree with them, quote them, disbelieve them, glorify or vilify them.

About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things. They invent. They imagine. They heal. They explore. They create. They inspire. They push the human race forward.

Maybe they have to be crazy.

How else can you stare at an empty canvas and see a work of art? Or sit in silence and hear a song that’s never been written? Or gaze at a red planet and see a laboratory on wheels?

While some see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do." - Apple's Think Different campaign.

Now, it seems that I really do need a nice motivation, a good enough cause and a noble justification to explain things that I've done at the past, present, and for the future - just to keep me sane and wise - and I really do hope it helps me find what is it that to me has been lost - or have been rob - away as now I think is the lowest point of my life. Never before have I been this "lost" before, or maybe I have to go through this phase of self-enlightenment as to explore what is it that I'm passionate for. Sitting duck and waiting things to happen have never be my cup of tea, so please to friends and family out there, bear with me and guide me as to not let me gone astray.

O God. This over-thinking habit of mine - the "Why?" syndrome has really taken its toll out of me. I have lost my touch - lost my enthusiastic and above all, I really did think all of the things I do in the present doesn't even matter anymore... 

Some things people told me that to them is "important" - but to me is "ridiculous".

Some things people are looking forward into to them is life-changing - but to me is its just normal.

Some of the things to some define "success" - but to me that definition is way beyond people to comprehend - to me success is not something that we can achieve - as to me success mean "perfect" but yet we know nothing can be "perfect". There will be up and down - the wheel of life will keep turning and we as common mortal just have to push forward - struggling in improving and make our life easier - innovation as to me is the only way forward.

I know now that life will become sooooo boring if its remain stagnant - with the mentality of just-follow-the-flock just can't sit right in me.

Yeah. Some action that justify out-of-the-flock seems to some a bit too risky, as we are putting a bet on life and people just can't accept it as "normal", yet supporting it as to them "Hang nak masuk longkang masuk sorg2, jgn ajak aku masuk skali. Kalo ok, hang gitau aku lepas tu..." if its not ok, "Tu la... aku dah gtau hang xmau dgr... padan muka."

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Everybody a critic. Kan?

Sigh. Got to bear with it then.

p.s: But still, things to me that overrule religion is a big no-no.