Saturday, December 26

huh~

Just realizing that I've been fighting for the lost cause... for one whole freaking year.

I don't want to bad-mouth people and blaming them as in I know we all are part of the bigger circle, all of us are there to blame...

I'm trying to make peace with it and although before most of my time I act as if everything is OK and fine, the pain and guilt kept creeping and eating my heart and IT SHOWS IN MY FACE... THAT I'M NOT HAPPY.

So, to those who may concern, I'm through with it. I'm gonna fight for what I love for and for what my passion is.

Also realizing that I'm not gonna fight someone elses battle and be used then thrown away when I mess up.

...and the hard reality is, for so long I've been trying to be a good boy and listen do what they say... Its been eating me inside up, that I know the word like, "Kita kena bwat benda kita xsuka baru dpt benda kita suka." but still, I don't like it.

One year of nothing just shows me that.

When I ask politely to struggle along to repair and fix the condition, they don't wanna. So I've been alone. Not a word of gratitude shown and when shit happen, the blame is all on me.

They doesn't remember there was a time when someone call me a beggar, bangsat, penipu, etc.

That's what I get for being kind. Wanted to be a martyr la kononnya...

Huh~ That's it.

I'm through with this.

I'm gonna live my life my own way. Not being selfish but trying to live my life to a be more meaningful, at least for my own end. Don't like to be someone else chess pieces and get manipulated away as in I was a thrash.

I'm worth more than this.

Wanted to move on into something new or back into my old passion.

...and also trying hard not to be a belligerent and archaic, wry person.

Heh.

Enough with this shit.




Btw, AVATAR IS A BLAST!!! (with Suhadlie just so you know... bidan terjun ahaks!!)
The experience watching Avatar is the same like I was playing Final Fantasy before, except the Japanese part. Heh.

Science fiction+Pocahontas-like story = Night Elf WarCraft 3 character.

LoL.

Princess and the Frog is classic, yet it breaks from the stereotype of classic 2D animation and for me a bliss of it is kinda refreshing and no wonder it gets high rating from the critiques.


p/s: 2010 = A new revelation, an epiphany arrive. Eager what comes next. (Problems won't lose away, they just kept getting better and better. Embrace it folks.)

OST of the Day: Mew - 156

Friday, December 18

haha...

hoo?

hmm...

At years end (or semester holiday so to speak), usually I just loafing around town, lepak at mamak stall, going around window shopping (O_o), taking off holiday to Penang, JB and Kuantan...

But I don't know why this time I just want to lay down and stop with all those "youth" thing. An epiphany, I might add and realizing that I'm getting older by the minute and getting broke in the process. My parents always mocking me that I "perabih beras mak bapak ja". So I took a risk, sacrificing what I hold dear (MY FREE TIME!!) and get into a job.

Adaptus Design System Sdn. Bhd. (Graphics Division)
subsidiary by


Great environment and colleague makes me want to extend my studies and just focusing on improving my portfolio... (and to my surprise, many oppose this saying, "You just got ONE YEAR LEFT!!")
Haha.

Thanks to my father, working here give me invaluable and remarkable experience. And by the way, because of short-span of time (one month duration),  I don't get any allowance. Go figure.

I don't know why, but I felt happy even though I didn't get any allowance. In change, I get contacts and networking and give me a wider view of what truly happening in this industry. I love what I do, even that many of us may not be among the best-rewarded workers in the world, but we certainly have one of the highest rates of job-satisfaction. Setting off for the office every day with a smile on my face because I'm about to spend time doing what I would be doing anyway, even if I'm not being paid for it, is surely a definition of happiness. Of course, a big cheque at the end of the day can add to the pleasure, but the real fulfillment is to be found in the work itself... My escapism from all those stressful dealing and dilemma.

Huhuhu. Optimistic.

Everybody said that all of us become optimistic in the early stage of working but when you're involved in office politics and lack of money (added by friends bragging that they get a much bigger paycheck then you) I don't know how long my optimism gonna last.
Hahahaha.

And then mixed with my misfortune with mechanical thingy.
1. My car broke down - the engine overheated because the cooling fan malfunction and the gasket had to be replace... (RM600) added by Kelisa accident with God-knows-where tiang (RM1600 - Bumper saja RM700).

2. Arrived in Cheras picking up one of my partner because his car BROKE DOWN... (with my license already expired) me and Aiz just took the risk and we went there with borrowed motorcycles. On the way back to Shah Alam, ONE of the motorcycle's tire going flat; and I'm driving it. Lucky me there's no lorry or car behind...

Thank God that Aiz's brother in-law live nearby and come to the rescue.
Fuh~

And by the way, my result sucks!!

p/s: I'm addicted to a constant dose of delirium... =_=
hmmmm. Avatar everyone?

Coldplay - Cemeteries of London

Wednesday, December 16

haa?

2010 is COMING!!!!!

Expecting World Cup, my final year degree, "marquis"ship, or maybe the end of the beginning of my pre-adult life?

The so-called adult means a lot but many of us just can't seem to accept that responsibilities, risk, relationship and adventure that we may face will be different from before, and above all...

the taboo subject of it all...
Money.

The source of all evil and misfortune some may say but to me
"Money is like a sixth sense - and you can't make use of the other five without it."

Lately I've been in a "debate" like everyday; some may say "argue", but I prefer to be optimistic. To me each of us form our own unique and informed perspective; there are no right or wrong. Having an opinion helps us break the mold. All of us have egos, and guess what? That's actually a good thing. After all our ego is what drives us to compete, excel, and in the end, do relevant, exciting experience. The bigger question - both in terms of imagination and creativity - is how can we use our talent and ego to benefit others?

I believe that in life there's always room for more... Room for something a little more sensual... Room to welcome enjoyment and experience... Room to invite freedom and movement into our mentality. We can never limit or strict ourselves by not doing something that we don't "like". Sometimes the best of life is we challenge ourselves doing something we don't like. Blessing in disguise I presume. Heh.

It isn't all fillet mignon and box seats. Its not about who's winning and who's losing. Everyone's a winner, that's a fact, but the definition defer in each one of us. Respect and criticism is a virtue, but overdoing it may make people misunderstand the meaning behind it (above all when in a RAGE hahaha).

p/s: The plot thickens.Can I survive the next chapter of my life in
infamy
or
glory?

We'll see. Btw, I just can't translate what I had in mind when talking. Blogging has become my nirvana. Muahahahhahaa

Queens Of The Stone Age - Go With The Flow

Tuesday, December 8

haa...?

"The night is darkest just before the dawn. I promise you - the dawn is coming." - Harvey Dent aka Two-face from The Dark Knight.

Sometimes I do wonder... I'm trying not to make problems, make people happy, always trying to be funny and above all... be different.
But the result is people become more irate and says that I've become incorrigible. ME??

INCORRIGIBLE??

To lazy to tell what makes them say this, but I'm struggling to make ends meet... forcing myself to satisfy others...
...and I'm at the crossroad in choosing which promiscuous path I might choose.
I gave up my "gamer" life, sacrificing myself for business aka job.
Realizing that to succeed it takes perseverance and sacrifice... but still I think it will not suffice.

I need something to look upon into, random things I might add, that will stimulate my sorry mind that has become too subdue from doing anything...

Someone says that I'm dead boring... can't agree more. Hahaha.

(Broke!! Nk gerak having fun pun xleh!! Mmg la boring!! ARGHHHH!!!)

I don't have a rich parents, rich friends that can always "belanja" me, I have to survive on my own. I even considered that I want to extend my studies to support my studies and business... I'm sick in relying to other people that say, "Support2!!" but in reality hypocrite and sacrilege of that word disgust me. Above all, I'm not blaming others because we got our own selfish path to take care about.
Sometimes I felt that I'm unfortunate, but looking at others I'm grateful that I felt this way.

"Somethings that doesn't kill you will not make you stronger."

...people says that I'm the one making this predicament, but things happen for a reason right?

A bliss of happiness and sadness will make your day dramatic, like it or not - it makes your life worthwhile. I want to have fun like normal young adult, but I can't. I got mouth(s) to feed. Got a debt to settle and still the pressure is killing me that sometimes I do wonder what will happen if I just run away...

But I don't want to run away. I don't want to be a coward. I have to embrace it nonetheless.

p/s: I'll do it alone if I have to. Self-pity is useless now. Ape nk jadi jadi lah.


Saturday, December 5

haa...

Just read something from the good-old Yahoo about "7 Thoughts That R Bad For U"...

1. Cynicism

Cynics who tend to be suspicious and mistrustful of others, a character trait that scientists refer to as hostility, may have an increased likelihood of developing heart disease. "These aren't necessarily hot-headed people, but people who are more likely to read into people's behavior as some hostile motive," Stephen Boyle said during a telephone interview.

In a study of more than 300 Vietnam veterans who were healthy at the study start, Boyle found that those who scored high on measures of hostility were about 25 percent more likely to develop heart disease.

Boyle and his colleagues think that hostile individuals might experience more stress, which can cause spikes in an immune-system protein called C3 that has been linked with various diseases, including diabetes. In fact, the participants with higher scores on hostility showed an increase in these proteins while the non-hostile men showed no such increase.

2. Lack of Meaning

If you lack a sense of purpose, your stay on Earth could be truncated. A study involving more than 1,200 elderly participants who didn't have dementiaat the study's start found that those who indicated having a high purpose in life were about half as likely to die over the study period, which lasted up to five years. The results, published in the June 15 issue of the journal Psychosomatic Medicine, held regardless of a person's age, sex, education and race, along with level of depression and neuroticism.

"Persons with high purpose readily derive meaning from and make sense of the events of their lives, and likely engage in behaviors and activities that they deem important," said study researcher Patricia Boyle of the Rush Alzheimer's Disease Center in Chicago.

Some other research has suggested that people with a higher sense of purpose may have different levels of stress hormones, better heart health or improved immune systems, though more research is needed to firm up any of these biological mechanisms, she said.

The opposite also holds: "The findings from our study suggested that people who no longer set and work actively toward goals or enjoy their day-to-day activities (how they spend their time) are those with greater mortality risk," Boyle told LiveScience.

3. Fretting

People who are highly neurotic -- constantly worried and anxious, and prone to depression -- die sooner on average than their chill counterparts. And a recently reported study of nearly 1,800 men followed over a 30-year period suggests that's partly because neurotics are also more likely to smoke. Perhaps having a cigarette eases anxiety, said study researcher Daniel Mroczek of Purdue University in Indiana, adding that such a short-term payoff might not be worth it if it kills you down the line.

4. Lack of Self-control

Late for appointments? Can't keep your desk organized? No self-control? These seemingly benign qualities could take a toll on your health.

A review of more than 20 studies and nearly 9,000 participants revealed people who are conscientious -- organized and self-disciplined, as opposed to impulsive -- live two to four years longer than others. Study researcher Howard S. Friedman of the University of California, Riverside, suspects the boost in lifetime can be attributed partly to the fact that highly conscientious individuals are less likely to smoke or drink to excess, and live more stable and less stressful lives. The study is detailed in a 2008 issue of the journal Health Psychology.

5. Anxiety

The jitters can put a strain on your noggin, research suggests. Compared with the highly frazzled, individuals with a mellow demeanor who are outgoing may be less likely to develop dementia, which can be caused by Alzheimer's disease and other illnesses. The claim is based on a study that followed more than 500 elderly individuals for five years. Among the outgoing extroverts, dementia risk was 50 percent lower for participants who were calm compared with those who were prone to distress.

6. Gloom and Doom

The gloomy, inhibited person is not just at a disadvantage socially, but also physically.

A preliminary study of more than 180 patients suffering from peripheral arterial disease (plaque buildup in the arteries) showed participants with so-called type D, or distressed, personality, had an increased odds of dying sooner than other people. Type-D people are more likely to experience negative emotions while at the same time hold in their feelings.

The researchers, who detail their work in the August issue of the journal Archives of Surgery, suggest the personality type is linked with the body's immune system as well as stress response system.

7. Stress

Whatever you do, don't let this list worry you! Research is showing that prolonged stress can be deadly, and if it doesn't do you in, workplace stress can increase your chances of heart disease, flu virus, metabolic syndrome and having high blood pressure.

A study of nearly 700 Israeli workers found that those who experienced job burnout (when work stress becomes unmanageable) were nearly twice as likely as others to develop type 2 diabetes, in which a person's body becomes resistant to the sugar-regulating hormone called insulin.

And while a job promotion might boost your income, it also stresses you out. British researchers recently found that when people get promoted, they suffer on average about 10 percent more mental strain and are less likely to find time to go to the doctor.

p/s: Post xdak idea... =_=

Btw, rasa cam nk extend.

Paramore-Misguided Ghosts

I'm going away for a while
But I'll be back, don't try and follow me
'Cause I'll return as soon as possible
See I'm trying to find my place
But it might not be here where I feel safe
We all learn to make mistakes

{Chorus}
And run
From them, from them
With no direction
We'll run from them, from them
With no conviction

'Cause I'm just one of those ghosts
Traveling endlessly
Don't need no roads
In fact they follow me

And we just go in circles

{Verse 2}
Well Now I'm told that this is life
And pain is just a simple compromise
So we can get what we want out of it
Would someone care to classify,
Of broken hearts and twisted minds
So I can find someone to rely on

{Chorus}
And run
To them, to them
Full speed ahead
Oh you are not, Useless
We are just

Misguided ghosts
Traveling endlessly
The ones we trusted the most
Pushed us far away
And there's no one road
We should not be the same
But I'm just a ghost
And still they echo me

They echo me in circles

Saturday, November 28

B-)

Lately I've been reading Yasmin Ahmad's blog,
and

I don't know whether people want to speculate whether she were a man before (Zulkifli Ahmad) but one thing for sure, her thought and ideas is both provoking our mentality as Malaysian and mark my words... her works will live on just as P. Ramlee's movie and Sudirman's songs impact us as a legendary products of our own country Malaysia.

The question is, what is the recipe in becoming successful like them? I don't like to focus on their already successful career but what is it that makes them successful. Is it because of their formal education? Their parents? Environments? Friends?
.
.
Mentality?

Last week I've been watching the two-parts of "Mahathir" biography in History Channel
 and it tells how the late Prime Minister or "Dictator" (Opposition calls him this. Heh.) been brought up from just a wee child to a great visionary...

...and it sparks me thinking,
Is is their luck or their hard-work that make them become what they are or their
past FAILURE that mold them into what they are today?

I adore Abraham Lincoln. He's not a quitter. This is some of his profile and past failure:
Born into poverty, Lincoln was faced with defeat throughout his life. 
He lost eight elections, twice failed in business and suffered a nervous breakdown.
 
Here is a sketch of Lincoln's road to the White House:
 
1816: His family was forced out of their home. He had to work to support them. 
1818: His mother died.
1831: Failed in business.
1832: Ran for state legislature - lost.
1832: Also lost his job - wanted to go to law school but couldn’t get in.
1833: Borrowed some money from a friend to begin a business and by the end of 
the year he was bankrupt. He spent the next 17 years of his life paying of this debt. 
1834: Ran for state legislature again - won.
1835: Was engaged to be married, sweetheart died and his heart was broken.
1836: Had a total nervous breakdown and was in bed for six months.
1838: Sought to become speaker of the state legislature - defeated.
1840: Sought to become elector - defeated.
1843: Ran for Congress - lost.
1846: Ran for Congress again - this time he won - went to Washington 
and did a good job.
1848: Ran for re-election to Congress - lost.
1849: Sought the job of land officer in his home state - rejected.
1854: Ran for Senate of the United States - lost.
1856: Sought the Vice-Presidential nomination at his party’s national 
convention - got less than 100 votes.
1858: Ran for U.S. Senate again - again he lost.
1860: Elected president of the United States. 
 
 for full profile and stories please go to this link -  
http://www.snopes.com/glurge/lincoln.asp 
 
Yeah... its an urban legend. Most of the claims was inaccurate so to speak but 
 inspirational nonetheless.  
 
p/s: Someone said that I can be a journalist or a biography writer... 
For me, I just want to be a Jack-of-all-trades... heh. Anything goes then.
 

Friday, November 27

:(

Thursday, November 26

:P

In what other language do people drive in a parkway and park in a driveway?

Why does night fall but never break and day break but never fall?

Why is it that when we transport something by car, it's called a shipment, but when we transport something by ship, it's called cargo?

Why are people who ride motorcycles called bikers and people who ride bikes called cyclists?

In what other language do they call the third hand on the clock the second hand?

Why is it called a TV set when you get only one?

Why - in our crazy language - can your nose run and your feet smell?

Sometimes you have to believe that all English speakers should be committed to an asylum for the verbally insane:

If olive oil is made of olives, what do they make baby oil from?

If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian consume?

A writer is someone who writes, and a stinger is something that stings.

But fingers don't fing and grocers don't groce.

If the plural of tooth is teeth, shouldn't the plural of booth be beeth?

If the teacher taught, why isn't it also true that the preacher praught?

If harmless actions are the opposite of harmful actions, why are shameless and shameful behavior the same?

English is a language in which you can turn a light on and you can turn a light off and you can turn a light out, but you can't turn a light in;

In which the sun comes up and goes down, but prices go up and come down.

In which your nose can simultaneously burn up and burn down and your car can slow up and slow down, in which you can fill in a form by filling out a form and in which your alarm clock goes off by going on.

English is a crazy language. What is it that when the sun or the moon or the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are out, they are invisible; and why when I wind up my watch, I start it, but when I wind up this essay, I shall end it?

Tricky Plurals
============ ===

We'll begin with a box, and the plural is boxes;

but the plural of ox became oxen not oxes.

One fowl is a goose, but two are called geese,

yet the plural of moose should never be meese.

You may find a lone mouse or a nest full of mice;

yet the plural of house is houses, not hice.

If the plural of man is always called men,

why shouldn't the plural of pan be called pen?

If I spoke of my foot and show you my feet,

and I give you a boot, would a pair be called beet?

If one is a tooth and a whole set are teeth,

why shouldn't the plural of booth be called beeth?

Then one may be that, and three would be those,

yet hat in the plural would never be hose,

and the plural of cat is cats, not cose.

We speak of a brother and also of brethren,

but though we say mother, we never say methren.

Then the masculine pronouns are he, his and him, but imagine the feminine, she, shis and shim.

Lets face it, English is a crazy language!

Wednesday, November 25

life = risk


"If you never fail, you never lived."



Another quote:
"The young do not know enough to be prudent, and therefore they attempt the impossible; and achieve it, generation after generation." - Pearl S. Buck

"Formal education will make you a living, self education can make you a fortune." - Jim Rohn

"Give so much to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others." - Christian D. Larson


"Experience is what you get when you do not get what you want." - Anonymous

"Employ your time in improving yourself by other men writing so that you shall come easily by what others have labored hard for." - Socrates

"Empty pockets never held anyone back. Only empty heads and empty hearts can do that." - Norman Vincent Peale
.
.
.

Damn.

p/s: Gotta endure it huh?

Friday, November 20

ARGH!!!

I have to
CHANGE MYSELF in SOMETHING be it ENVIRONMENT or VIEWS drastically!!!

...damn.

Just realize that I've become:
1. A dull listener.
2. A bit absent-minded.
3. A forgetful dipshit. (Hari pun leh lupa)
4. Lazysonofabit**.
5. Moody ungrateful bastard.


Faiz says I think to much. My mother says that I "suke merungut mcm pompuan". Eryn says that I bore her to death. Hahahahaha. I didn't yet ask Farah, Farhana, Iera or others yet, wonder what they will answer... hmmm...
(Sorry if I didn't mention every besties that I have here... mampus nk senarai)


How can I make others happy if I'm not happy?
What is it that make me happy:
1. Money?
2. Friends?
3. Outdoor Activity?
4. Partying?
5. ...read a book? (duh... =_=)
6. Dating?
7. Sleeping?
8. Facebook"ing"?
9. Blogging?
10. Gaming?
...
11. Holiday"ing"?
12. (fill in the blank)
.
.
.


(I'm out of ideas here...)


I am a Phlegmatic, a quiz from Facebook says that I'm attracted to Choleric. But I feel like I'm going Melancholic...to overly occupied with the tragedy and cruelty of the world...


5 Temperaments (Please Google it)


Sanguine (top right), Choleric (bottom right), Melancholy (bottom left), and Phlegmatic (centre), with Supine (top left) and Phlegmatic blends in between. 



p/s: Trying to be radical. Wanted to be. But get lost otw.


OsT of the Day: Eisley - Marvelous Things

Wednesday, November 18

I'm stuck, aren't I?

...Someone told me that I'm a bit conservative and act a bit tooooo old despite my age. She told me (Yes. She.) that I've been a bit too serious and went silent all the time. I don't know about this conservative, "liberal" thing but one thing for sure, I'm a mixed up of both.

I'll be a conservative when it touches something that is proven; time-honored development of state and affairs.
For example: Tradition and culture. Cultural Conservatism?
I'll be a liberal when it touches something that requires criticism and changes to improve present state.
Example: Mentality and Acceptance/Respect Differences on Others.

My father a bit liberal, while my mother a conservative. He wanted change, freedom of thought. She wanted things the way it used to be, embracing changes but in slower paces.

Both of them seems to have influenced me in a confused way. Same like Robert Kiyosaki Rich Dad Poor Dad dilemma, I've been bred in two world and mentality; and it seems to me that it spark me thinking...

Freedom of Speech and Action is necessary, but without acceptance and consent, it will turn wild and out of control... (That's why we have rules eh? Islamic or Civic? For enlightenment, watch Law Abiding Citizen)


...

I sound a bit old... aren't I?
T___T

...I don't know why, but lately I spaced out a lot and been thinking out of my league. Things seem been falling apart, friends avoiding me, parents scolding me, me whining (ME!!! Of all PEOPLE!!), and all the scenario seems not turning into my favor. I'm trying not to be a hypocrite, but then, I don't know who'll be the one I  turn to. Heck, I don't even what I'm turning INTO. Lately my business in disarray, broke, self-esteem gone to drain and confidence seems to be "kaput". I've lost my purpose... and don't want to influence others because of it.

HELL.

Climbing up is hard eh? Not because of others, but the egoist in me is not letting me go.
I act as if everything is OK, but Heaven knows... Its NOT.
A solution is there, but I don't know when and how to embrace it.
I've become solitude, still not a hermit but trying to.

Please someone slap me back into reality before I'm going nuts of my own predicaments.

p/s: Watched 2012, imaginary apocalypse turns to real... In Hollywood-ism so to speak. LoL.
But damn... at first the producer want to include Kaaba as one of the destroyed depiction but change it at the last minute because don't want a "fatwa" issued over him. Heh.


I won't be the one to disappoint you anymore,
I know, I've said all this and that you've heard
It all before,
The trick is getting you to think that all this was your idea.
And that this was everything you've ever wanted out of here,
Love's not a competition but I'm winning.
I'm not sure what's truly altruistic anymore,
When every good thing that I do is listed and you're keeping score,
Love's not a competition but I'm winning
Love's not a competition but I'm winning
At least I thought I was but there's no way of knowing,
At least I thought I was but there's no way of knowing,
You know what it's like when you're new to the game but I'm not,
I won't be the one to disappoint you,
I won't be the one to disappoint you anymore

Tuesday, November 17

Redemption?

...For the past 23 years that I've been living, when I think of it a while back, life seems so short.

Back when I was in Early Primary School, I wanted to be a Scientist, Marine Biologist, influenced by constant barrage of National Geographic show in TV. Back then, my believed is that being a scientist is cool.

Then when I'm in Standard 6, my father bought me my own personal computer. Being exalted with graphics, tweaking and playing with computers, I changed my ambition from scientist to computer savvy, thus changing my idol from Stephen Hawking to the nerdiest, richest man on the Planet... Bill Gates.

Being influenced by peer pressure (Azharan, Pok Nik, Mat Jun, Mokhsin, Mat Zharif, and Pak Chap, all of you at fault here) in playing addictive online games like Counter Strike (still in BETA) and legendary StarCraft, we tempted to "fly" away from our respective BITARA school at midnight to nearest CC and then get "kantoi" by the honorable wardens, Pak Hasan and get canned by Pak Karam, the principal.

My thought and ambition at that time was to be a Computer Entrepreneur or at least be a decent Game Designer.

The dream lives on till SPM and after the results were out, I vow to take a computer related courses to pursue my dream...

Not realizing that with my poor performance in Add Math, I take Alpha IT in MMU and lo and behold, I was dumbfounded to find that with my poor performance in Math, I want to pursue another talent of mine... drawing.

Thus began my fool's dream that I want to be a concept artist and changing my idol again; to Range Murata. After I blown my studies in MMU, I've become an animator... (Sound like a professional, but it doesn't really) in a company called Makmur Megah Sdn. Bhd. but short-lived at about 2 month after I got my offer in UiTM in Industrial Design for my diploma studies... (related to Range Murata because he himself was a industrial designer so I assume that I will get the same exposure like him).

...Yes, industrial design is interesting... with lots of prospectus job to cover and skill craft I've got to master... but yet again, I don't feel that this is what I want to pursue.
(My poor skill in Model Making just pissed me off...T__T)

When the 3 years term for my diploma has come to an end, I've yet to determine that, "Must I further my studies in Industrial Design or another?"

THEN I choose Graphic Design for my current degree studies and still confused whether I'll pursue a job as a designer or not...

Then it occurred to me...

Checklist:
1. Am I a type that get bored too easily?
- I'm right brained. Google it.
2. What is my "prerogative"?
- I like to do as I please, as long as it not contradict with Islam law...
3. What is my purpose actually?
- After reviewing it many times and observing what I've done so far, I'm fit to be a king, and want to be one.
.....
KIDDING.

...but seriously, what is the best ambition and occupation or jobs that fit the characteristic?

Art Director?
Teacher/Lecturer?
...
Entrepreneur?

p/s: 23. Am I still too young or just old to think something like this purpose something?

Sunday, November 15

*___*

"As one of my favorite blogs opined that once you leave your life to be judged by others, then you will be left unhappy for the rest of your life."
- a quote from my ex-schoolmate, Afiq (afiqfikri.blogspot.com)

We can say, "I don't care what other people think, I'll do it my way."
That's selfish.

We can also say, "We're still young. Chill lah..."

Life is moving on the fast plane. That's for sure.

Sometimes I wonder, we can say that "Life is short! Sulking and whining don't get you nowhere."

But normally we've done things the opposite.

When will we die?

...and the worst is...
What if we get paralyzed and can't do nothing except hoping someone helping us clean our crap, gives us food and telling us stories about hope and fairy tale.

I've thought about this when I watched Million Dollar Baby.

The movie makes me think, life is like a wheel. Sometimes we're up, sometimes down. But before we will ever be down, we tried our hardest to make people like us and respect us, above all LOVE us.

We tried to pursue our purpose and revamp it to suit our needs but sometimes planning and then success makes us forgot that we're still on the move...

...and we're still felt lonely and wondering what has gone wrong.

Maturity is a question, because it is subjective depends on whose and the experiences be it may young and old.

Old and wise doesn't mean that they are matured. Sometimes old people act more immature than the young.

EQ plays an important roles here.


I've mixed up most of my topic, did I? 
(Lama xtulis blog, byk sgt nk share pening nk tulis smue... nguaks)

My point is that we must live our life to the fullest, forgive and never forget the past and live positively. Try not to be all selfish, because we'll never want to retire alone and full of nemesis saying us all this and that. And above all, be it liberal or conservative, radical maybe, we can never deny history. We can't be an egoist and telling that we've done things the right way and all other people is wrong...

...ironically, life is all hard and not a fairy-tale.

p/s: Easier said than done. I'm a hypocrite aren't I?


So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us, something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they say
never cared for games they play
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
and I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No, nothing else matters

Thursday, November 5

...deep sheet? O_o

 31st October 2009

The not-to-do during 1st date:
1. Don't have a well planned destination.
2. Don't have enough money.
3. Do not use public transport during peak hours or weekend.
4. Don't be late.
5. Use near depleted charged handphones.

...and yet I've done all of this. Siao.
LoL

Komuter Berasap when on a trip to KL Sentral; stranded at Setia Jaya
 ...thank God it is ok in the end... =3 (Says me. nguaks)


Unique movie as I've never seen a movie depicting Antarctica as good as this movie.
(White Desert eh?)

Word of the Day: Dipsh**.

O_o

Bler plak nk 2nd date? Muahahahahahahaha

1st November 2009

Hitchhiking my father to Shah Alam and he brought me to one of his meeting with his client at Concorde.

Pose maut di Lobby Concorde.

 
...then meeting di kedai mamak tepi jalan... (Ingatkan kat Hard Rock Cafe. Nguaks.)
His client aka Developer aka Tokey Kerapu n Lobster baru balik dr Paris.

"U tahu dak Dato A**** baru2 ni lari US... ramai org cari dier..."

"I've think I'm underpaid. Project hari2 tangki bocor u tolong cari kaki bole?"

"Anak I xminat biznes... anak u belajaq xhbh lg dah nk bwat biznes... camner u bwat aa?"

"Budak2 zaman2 skrg bkn cam dulu... nk joli jer kerja depa..."

bla bla bla

2nd November 2009


Bwat flash... T___T

Thank God finish jugak in the end...

Moral of the Day: Don't do kerje LAST MINUTE!!!

3rd November 2009

Presentation... and then the projector not working.
Nguaks.

At night went to office with our new partners and along the way, heavy rainfall stow us away below a LRT pathway...



Word of the Day: Tiarap!!!

4th November 2009

...Golek2 while complaining why is it the Internet always DOWN...

Finding of the Day: Windows Live bes lagi dari YM?? O_o

Thursday, October 29

...yet another SIAO day... (October Tragedy)

...Plez someone, kill Awie for his song has affected me so DAMN DEEP...

...this week SO HECTIC and realize that LAW OF ATTRACTION really so GOD DAMN WORKS...

...did you ever think that our misery and sadness can be contagious?

...OMG...

...I've sound like a heretic who did't yet believe the 6 pillar of faith and the last of it all:


Believe in Divine Decree 

The story goes:
 1. First, getting WEIRD and O_O message from one of my "angels"... but to my amaze not all angels are virgin. Nguaks. (Silap Hantar)
2. Then, one of this cute gals that I've targeted seems to be a lesbo. Single but not available. Siao.
3. My friends clashing and breaking... (ade yg dah reconcile. gud2)
4. My father's Kelisa got hit by an Accord. Go figure.
5. My house-mate's parent got divorced. Then the other seems to be "membawa diri" (down).
6. Classmate got hit by a car... the guilty ran away, but to his luck there's a patrol car nearby and yet he's still alive... (motor hancur tp dia hidup... bad guy pyh mati kan? LoL)
7. Then my "antics" got stolen...

...approximately 1304, pic taken by my housemate because of heavy rainfall...



The Victim. Got stolen at 1400. Urghhh...

The plan is I have a "first" date that night, but can't go because of this predicament.

Then, after all of this happened, I've just got the urge to go to our new center at Puchong and went to the OneTeam center... Sorry for being down for all this time...

T__T

or

LoL?

p/s: Hope that after all this misfortune and sadness, happiness and "kelapangan" comes... Lama xdtg bala2 camnih. Hohoho

(Then many of my friends ask me, why is it you seem happy after my car got stolen? I just said, "Nak down brapa lama? 5min down, pastu bangun la balik. Sulking and whining will not get you anything except saket hati. LoL"

 
 
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