B-)

Lately I've been reading Yasmin Ahmad's blog,

http://yasminthestoryteller.blogspot.com/

and

http://yasminthefilmmaker.blogspot.com/

I don't know whether people want to speculate whether she were a man before (Zulkifli Ahmad) but one thing for sure, her thought and ideas is both provoking our mentality as Malaysian and mark my words... her works will live on just as P. Ramlee's movie and Sudirman's songs impact us as a legendary products of our own country Malaysia.

The question is, what is the recipe in becoming successful like them? I don't like to focus on their already successful career but what is it that makes them successful. Is it because of their formal education? Their parents? Environments? Friends?

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Mentality?

Last week I've been watching the two-parts of "Mahathir" biography in History Channel
 and it tells how the late Prime Minister or "Dictator" (Opposition calls him this. Heh.) been brought up from just a wee child to a great visionary...

...and it sparks me thinking,

Is is their luck or their hard-work that make them become what they are or their

past FAILURE that mold them into what they are today?

I adore Abraham Lincoln. He's not a quitter. This is some of his profile and past failure:

Born into poverty, Lincoln was faced with defeat throughout his life. 

He lost eight elections, twice failed in business and suffered a nervous breakdown.

Here is a sketch of Lincoln's road to the White House:

1816: His family was forced out of their home. He had to work to support them. 

1818: His mother died.

1831: Failed in business.

1832: Ran for state legislature - lost.

1832: Also lost his job - wanted to go to law school but couldn’t get in.

1833: Borrowed some money from a friend to begin a business and by the end of 

the year he was bankrupt. He spent the next 17 years of his life paying of this debt. 

1834: Ran for state legislature again - won.

1835: Was engaged to be married, sweetheart died and his heart was broken.

1836: Had a total nervous breakdown and was in bed for six months.

1838: Sought to become speaker of the state legislature - defeated.

1840: Sought to become elector - defeated.

1843: Ran for Congress - lost.

1846: Ran for Congress again - this time he won - went to Washington 

and did a good job.

1848: Ran for re-election to Congress - lost.

1849: Sought the job of land officer in his home state - rejected.

1854: Ran for Senate of the United States - lost.

1856: Sought the Vice-Presidential nomination at his party’s national 

convention - got less than 100 votes.

1858: Ran for U.S. Senate again - again he lost.

1860: Elected president of the United States. 

 for full profile and stories please go to this link -  

http://www.snopes.com/glurge/lincoln.asp 

Yeah... its an urban legend. Most of the claims was inaccurate so to speak but 

 inspirational nonetheless.  

p/s: Someone said that I can be a journalist or a biography writer... 

For me, I just want to be a Jack-of-all-trades... heh. Anything goes then.

:(

:P

In what other language do people drive in a parkway and park in a driveway?

Why does night fall but never break and day break but never fall?

Why is it that when we transport something by car, it's called a shipment, but when we transport something by ship, it's called cargo?

Why are people who ride motorcycles called bikers and people who ride bikes called cyclists?

In what other language do they call the third hand on the clock the second hand?

Why is it called a TV set when you get only one?

Why - in our crazy language - can your nose run and your feet smell?

Sometimes you have to believe that all English speakers should be committed to an asylum for the verbally insane:

If olive oil is made of olives, what do they make baby oil from?

If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian consume?

A writer is someone who writes, and a stinger is something that stings.

But fingers don't fing and grocers don't groce.

If the plural of tooth is teeth, shouldn't the plural of booth be beeth?

If the teacher taught, why isn't it also true that the preacher praught?

If harmless actions are the opposite of harmful actions, why are shameless and shameful behavior the same?

English is a language in which you can turn a light on and you can turn a light off and you can turn a light out, but you can't turn a light in;

In which the sun comes up and goes down, but prices go up and come down.

In which your nose can simultaneously burn up and burn down and your car can slow up and slow down, in which you can fill in a form by filling out a form and in which your alarm clock goes off by going on.

English is a crazy language. What is it that when the sun or the moon or the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are out, they are invisible; and why when I wind up my watch, I start it, but when I wind up this essay, I shall end it?

Tricky Plurals
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We'll begin with a box, and the plural is boxes;

but the plural of ox became oxen not oxes.

One fowl is a goose, but two are called geese,

yet the plural of moose should never be meese.

You may find a lone mouse or a nest full of mice;

yet the plural of house is houses, not hice.

If the plural of man is always called men,

why shouldn't the plural of pan be called pen?

If I spoke of my foot and show you my feet,

and I give you a boot, would a pair be called beet?

If one is a tooth and a whole set are teeth,

why shouldn't the plural of booth be called beeth?

Then one may be that, and three would be those,

yet hat in the plural would never be hose,

and the plural of cat is cats, not cose.

We speak of a brother and also of brethren,

but though we say mother, we never say methren.

Then the masculine pronouns are he, his and him, but imagine the feminine, she, shis and shim.

Lets face it, English is a crazy language!

life = risk

"If you never fail, you never lived."

Another quote:
"The young do not know enough to be prudent, and therefore they attempt the impossible; and achieve it, generation after generation." - Pearl S. Buck

"Formal education will make you a living, self education can make you a fortune." - Jim Rohn

"Give so much to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others." - Christian D. Larson


"Experience is what you get when you do not get what you want." - Anonymous

"Employ your time in improving yourself by other men writing so that you shall come easily by what others have labored hard for." - Socrates

"Empty pockets never held anyone back. Only empty heads and empty hearts can do that." - Norman Vincent Peale
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Damn.

p/s: Gotta endure it huh?

ARGH!!!

I have to

CHANGE MYSELF in SOMETHING be it ENVIRONMENT or VIEWS drastically!!!

...damn.

Just realize that I've become:

1. A dull listener.

2. A bit absent-minded.

3. A forgetful dipshit. (Hari pun leh lupa)

4. Lazysonofabit**.

5. Moody ungrateful bastard.


Faiz says I think to much. My mother says that I "suke merungut mcm pompuan". Eryn says that I bore her to death. Hahahahaha. I didn't yet ask Farah, Farhana, Iera or others yet, wonder what they will answer... hmmm...
(Sorry if I didn't mention every besties that I have here... mampus nk senarai)


How can I make others happy if I'm not happy?
What is it that make me happy:
1. Money?
2. Friends?
3. Outdoor Activity?
4. Partying?
5. ...read a book? (duh... =_=)
6. Dating?
7. Sleeping?
8. Facebook"ing"?
9. Blogging?
10. Gaming?
...
11. Holiday"ing"?
12. (fill in the blank)
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(I'm out of ideas here...)

I am a Phlegmatic, a quiz from Facebook says that I'm attracted to Choleric. But I feel like I'm going Melancholic...to overly occupied with the tragedy and cruelty of the world...


5 Temperaments (Please Google it)

Sanguine (top right), Choleric (bottom right), Melancholy (bottom left), and Phlegmatic (centre), with Supine (top left) and Phlegmatic blends in between. 

p/s: Trying to be radical. Wanted to be. But get lost otw.


OsT of the Day: Eisley - Marvelous Things

I'm stuck, aren't I?

...Someone told me that I'm a bit conservative and act a bit tooooo old despite my age. She told me (Yes. She.) that I've been a bit too serious and went silent all the time. I don't know about this conservative, "liberal" thing but one thing for sure, I'm a mixed up of both.

I'll be a conservative when it touches something that is proven; time-honored development of state and affairs.

For example: Tradition and culture. Cultural Conservatism?

I'll be a liberal when it touches something that requires criticism and changes to improve present state.

Example: Mentality and Acceptance/Respect Differences on Others.

My father a bit liberal, while my mother a conservative. He wanted change, freedom of thought. She wanted things the way it used to be, embracing changes but in slower paces.

Both of them seems to have influenced me in a confused way. Same like Robert Kiyosaki Rich Dad Poor Dad dilemma, I've been bred in two world and mentality; and it seems to me that it spark me thinking...

Freedom of Speech and Action is necessary, but without acceptance and consent, it will turn wild and out of control... (That's why we have rules eh? Islamic or Civic? For enlightenment, watch Law Abiding Citizen)

...

I sound a bit old... aren't I?

T___T

...I don't know why, but lately I spaced out a lot and been thinking out of my league. Things seem been falling apart, friends avoiding me, parents scolding me, me whining (ME!!! Of all PEOPLE!!), and all the scenario seems not turning into my favor. I'm trying not to be a hypocrite, but then, I don't know who'll be the one I  turn to. Heck, I don't even what I'm turning INTO. Lately my business in disarray, broke, self-esteem gone to drain and confidence seems to be "kaput". I've lost my purpose... and don't want to influence others because of it.

HELL.

Climbing up is hard eh? Not because of others, but the egoist in me is not letting me go.

I act as if everything is OK, but Heaven knows... Its NOT.

A solution is there, but I don't know when and how to embrace it.

I've become solitude, still not a hermit but trying to.

Please someone slap me back into reality before I'm going nuts of my own predicaments.

p/s: Watched 2012, imaginary apocalypse turns to real... In Hollywood-ism so to speak. LoL.

But damn... at first the producer want to include Kaaba as one of the destroyed depiction but change it at the last minute because don't want a "fatwa" issued over him. Heh.

I won't be the one to disappoint you anymore,
I know, I've said all this and that you've heard
It all before,
The trick is getting you to think that all this was your idea.
And that this was everything you've ever wanted out of here,
Love's not a competition but I'm winning.
I'm not sure what's truly altruistic anymore,
When every good thing that I do is listed and you're keeping score,
Love's not a competition but I'm winning
Love's not a competition but I'm winning
At least I thought I was but there's no way of knowing,
At least I thought I was but there's no way of knowing,
You know what it's like when you're new to the game but I'm not,
I won't be the one to disappoint you,
I won't be the one to disappoint you anymore

Redemption?

...For the past 23 years that I've been living, when I think of it a while back, life seems so short.

Back when I was in Early Primary School, I wanted to be a Scientist, Marine Biologist, influenced by constant barrage of National Geographic show in TV. Back then, my believed is that being a scientist is cool.

Then when I'm in Standard 6, my father bought me my own personal computer. Being exalted with graphics, tweaking and playing with computers, I changed my ambition from scientist to computer savvy, thus changing my idol from Stephen Hawking to the nerdiest, richest man on the Planet... Bill Gates.

Being influenced by peer pressure (Azharan, Pok Nik, Mat Jun, Mokhsin, Mat Zharif, and Pak Chap, all of you at fault here) in playing addictive online games like Counter Strike (still in BETA) and legendary StarCraft, we tempted to "fly" away from our respective BITARA school at midnight to nearest CC and then get "kantoi" by the honorable wardens, Pak Hasan and get canned by Pak Karam, the principal.

My thought and ambition at that time was to be a Computer Entrepreneur or at least be a decent Game Designer.

The dream lives on till SPM and after the results were out, I vow to take a computer related courses to pursue my dream...

Not realizing that with my poor performance in Add Math, I take Alpha IT in MMU and lo and behold, I was dumbfounded to find that with my poor performance in Math, I want to pursue another talent of mine... drawing.

Thus began my fool's dream that I want to be a concept artist and changing my idol again; to Range Murata. After I blown my studies in MMU, I've become an animator... (Sound like a professional, but it doesn't really) in a company called Makmur Megah Sdn. Bhd. but short-lived at about 2 month after I got my offer in UiTM in Industrial Design for my diploma studies... (related to Range Murata because he himself was a industrial designer so I assume that I will get the same exposure like him).

...Yes, industrial design is interesting... with lots of prospectus job to cover and skill craft I've got to master... but yet again, I don't feel that this is what I want to pursue.

(My poor skill in Model Making just pissed me off...T__T)

When the 3 years term for my diploma has come to an end, I've yet to determine that, "Must I further my studies in Industrial Design or another?"

THEN I choose Graphic Design for my current degree studies and still confused whether I'll pursue a job as a designer or not...

Then it occurred to me...

Checklist:

1. Am I a type that get bored too easily?

- I'm right brained. Google it.

2. What is my "prerogative"?

- I like to do as I please, as long as it not contradict with Islam law...

3. What is my purpose actually?

- After reviewing it many times and observing what I've done so far, I'm fit to be a king, and want to be one.

.....

KIDDING.

...but seriously, what is the best ambition and occupation or jobs that fit the characteristic?

Art Director?

Teacher/Lecturer?

...

Entrepreneur?

p/s: 23. Am I still too young or just old to think something like this purpose something?

*___*

"As one of my favorite blogs opined that once you leave your life to be judged by others, then you will be left unhappy for the rest of your life."

- a quote from my ex-schoolmate, Afiq (afiqfikri.blogspot.com)

We can say, "I don't care what other people think, I'll do it my way."

That's selfish.

We can also say, "We're still young. Chill lah..."

Life is moving on the fast plane. That's for sure.

Sometimes I wonder, we can say that "Life is short! Sulking and whining don't get you nowhere."

But normally we've done things the opposite.

When will we die?

...and the worst is...

What if we get paralyzed and can't do nothing except hoping someone helping us clean our crap, gives us food and telling us stories about hope and fairy tale.

I've thought about this when I watched Million Dollar Baby.

The movie makes me think, life is like a wheel. Sometimes we're up, sometimes down. But before we will ever be down, we tried our hardest to make people like us and respect us, above all LOVE us.

We tried to pursue our purpose and revamp it to suit our needs but sometimes planning and then success makes us forgot that we're still on the move...

...and we're still felt lonely and wondering what has gone wrong.

Maturity is a question, because it is subjective depends on whose and the experiences be it may young and old.

Old and wise doesn't mean that they are matured. Sometimes old people act more immature than the young.

EQ plays an important roles here.

I've mixed up most of my topic, did I? 

(Lama xtulis blog, byk sgt nk share pening nk tulis smue... nguaks)

My point is that we must live our life to the fullest, forgive and never forget the past and live positively. Try not to be all selfish, because we'll never want to retire alone and full of nemesis saying us all this and that. And above all, be it liberal or conservative, radical maybe, we can never deny history. We can't be an egoist and telling that we've done things the right way and all other people is wrong...

...ironically, life is all hard and not a fairy-tale.

p/s: Easier said than done. I'm a hypocrite aren't I?

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us, something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they say
never cared for games they play
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
and I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No, nothing else matters

...deep sheet? O_o

 31st October 2009

The not-to-do during 1st date:

1. Don't have a well planned destination.

2. Don't have enough money.

3. Do not use public transport during peak hours or weekend.

4. Don't be late.

5. Use near depleted charged handphones.

...and yet I've done all of this. Siao.

LoL

Komuter Berasap when on a trip to KL Sentral; stranded at Setia Jaya

 ...thank God it is ok in the end... =3 (Says me. nguaks)

Unique movie as I've never seen a movie depicting Antarctica as good as this movie.

(White Desert eh?)

Word of the Day: Dipsh**.

O_o

Bler plak nk 2nd date? Muahahahahahahaha

1st November 2009

Hitchhiking my father to Shah Alam and he brought me to one of his meeting with his client at Concorde.

Pose maut di Lobby Concorde.

 

...then meeting di kedai mamak tepi jalan... (Ingatkan kat Hard Rock Cafe. Nguaks.)

His client aka Developer aka Tokey Kerapu n Lobster baru balik dr Paris.

"U tahu dak Dato A**** baru2 ni lari US... ramai org cari dier..."

"I've think I'm underpaid. Project hari2 tangki bocor u tolong cari kaki bole?"

"Anak I xminat biznes... anak u belajaq xhbh lg dah nk bwat biznes... camner u bwat aa?"

"Budak2 zaman2 skrg bkn cam dulu... nk joli jer kerja depa..."

bla bla bla

2nd November 2009

Bwat flash... T___T

Thank God finish jugak in the end...

Moral of the Day: Don't do kerje LAST MINUTE!!!

3rd November 2009

Presentation... and then the projector not working.

Nguaks.

At night went to office with our new partners and along the way, heavy rainfall stow us away below a LRT pathway...

Word of the Day: Tiarap!!!

4th November 2009

...Golek2 while complaining why is it the Internet always DOWN...

Finding of the Day: Windows Live bes lagi dari YM?? O_o